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Post by Jason Hiller on Feb 9, 2010 20:32:08 GMT -5
Jason laughed. "Of course not. You're the furthest thing possible from that ugly old toad. You're beautiful," he said with a soft smile. And you're all mine.
He yawned, snuggling deeper into Zeph's arms. "I have to wonder how the first and last parts of the dream connected... Richard had whip scars in both of them. I want to know what happened in between," he murmured. "And if they were even in the right order to begin with."
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Feb 9, 2010 21:26:15 GMT -5
"It's a dream Jason, why does it have to make sense?" Zephyros asked softly. "It's always possible they weren't, even if they were related. Dreams skip all over."
He gave him a wry grin, "Like my emotions. You'd think I was a girl with the way I flip around..."
Sighing, he just held Jason a little closer, his eyes growing slightly distant. He just nuzzled Jason's hair again, closing his eyes. "Good thing I'm not, huh?"
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Post by Jason Hiller on Feb 9, 2010 21:29:25 GMT -5
Jason laughed, leaning his head against Zeph's chest and closing his eyes. "True, very true... and yeah, I like you the gender you are." He grinned, then yawned again, hiding it with his hand. He wondered briefly what time it was before dropping off to sleep again.
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Feb 10, 2010 0:09:29 GMT -5
Zephyros smiled at him, still playing with his hair slightly until he drifted off as well, sinking rapidly into dreams.
Zephyros watched two young men through the trees, rage building in him. A very small corner of his mind wondered why, but that was shoved away, deep inside and buried beneath the rage. The young men were throwing a discus between them, one a brunette dressed in little more than a loincloth and showing off a warrior's physique, the other in a white khiton with gold designs around the hem. A quiver full of golden arrows and an equally gold bow were slung over his shoulder, thick blond curls atop his head, in tight little spirals that fell about his head and shoulders. Zephyros' enraged eyes focused more on this one, though every time he looked at the other a stab of pain touched his heart. Finally, he could bear it no more and he leapt toward them, his wings spread wide.
Everything blurred and suddenly he was in an alley, the blond boy in his grasp and wearing Apollos' face and the other's at the same time, then only the bloodied and terrified expression Zephyros remembered all too well. His fist slammed one last time into Apollos' face and he dropped him angrily, as if it was Apollos' fault he had passed out. A brunette youth, again wearing two faces; that of Zeph's ex Hyakinthos and the boy in the clearing, then only Hyakinthos'. Crying out in the same pain and rage he'd felt in the clearing, he lunged and attacked the other, hurt and betrayal and anger all mixed and rolled within him, twisting in his stomach as a tight, black, hot ball. He beat the boy until he was barely recognizable, ignoring his sobs and pleas.
They were back in the clearing, Apollos/Apollon was gone, and the young Spartan prince (for now Zephyros recognized the myth and put the right names to the faces), lay in his arms, calling out softly, blindly to him for help as blood gushed from a gaping wound in his forehead. The anger was gone, and Zephyros wept as he held the dying boy in his arms. "Why? I loved you..." he said softly, both in the dream and aloud, his face twisted in sorrow.
"Zephyros... he-help me..." the boy whispered as the life faded from his face. Zephyros cradled him close and brushed the boy's hair from his forehead softly. Tears blurred his vision for a moment and the body in his arms shifted, growing taller and thinner, less the body of a warrior and more the body of an artist.
Zephyros gasped, in shock, in horror, in greater anguish than he had ever felt. Eyes that had once been brown were now pale blue, staring at him in lifeless confusion. "No, no, no," he whimpered, again speaking aloud as well as in the dream. He cradled the broken body of Jason close to his chest as students from Dunehelden crowded around him. He sobbed, trying to rub warmth into the cooling form he cradled.
"I didn't mean it, I didn't... why would you do this I didn't mean it!" he whispered he wailed, hot tears burning his eyes and face as Aramis pulled Jason away and started CPR.
Zephyros stood, staggered back, turned and ran, fighting his way through the crowd of faceless, jeering shadows. A voice called to him, a voice he should recognize. He ignored it and kept running, the agony of his betrayal, of how he had stabbed his Jason in the back tearing at him like claws.
He was alone, totally and completely alone. Notos was in class, and there was no one else to care, no one else to watch him closely enough to notice. The knife edge was cool in his hand, sharp enough to part the skin on his thumb with ease. He sat in the shower, shivering in the cold as the knife cut through the tender skin at the inside of his wrist, oddly painless. Everything turned black around him and he just sighed softly, slumping against the door.
The voice that had called to him earlier called again, and a warm breeze wrapped around him. "It didn't have to be this way... You didn't have to end it. You could have survived his loss, if you tried." the voice said as warm arms wrapped around him, cradled his cool body gently. He looked up into golden eyes, eyes that were his own and yet... not. They turned pale blue. "He wouldn't have wanted it..."
"I couldn't live without him... I don't have anything without him..."
"You had your brothers... sleep, Zephyros. You made your choice... sleep..." the voice soothed.
"I don't want to..." he whimpered, trying to rouse himself. “I… I changed my mind… let me go!” The darkness wrapped tightly around him, ignoring his plea and he gasped and woke up, tears running down his face and gasping desperately for breath. He shook a little, then looked at Jason and held him tightly, burying his face into Jason’s hair and beginning to sob. It took barely a moment for him to begin hiccupping, a sign to him that he’d been crying even in his sleep. Shaking and trying to control the hiccups that tore at him and made his chest ache, he just held Jason as tight as he could without hurting him, still crying into his hair.
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Post by Jason Hiller on Feb 10, 2010 9:19:32 GMT -5
Jason woke up with a soft gasp as Zeph began sobbing in his sleep, then took Jason into his arms and buried his face in his hair, sobbing. Anxiously Jason wrapped his arms around his boyfriend in return, shifting slightly in his grasp and kissing him softly.
"Shh, Zeph, it was just a dream... it's okay. I'm here," he soothed, nuzzling Zeph gently and rubbing his back to calm him. What on earth had Zeph been dreaming, to frighten him so much? His suicide attempt, perhaps, or Jason's fall? "We're okay... shhh, shhh..." He rocked gently back and forth, still holding Zeph close and kissing him.
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Feb 10, 2010 13:10:02 GMT -5
Zephyros shook, sniffling and coughing as he kept crying. He curled up against Jason's chest, pressing as close as he could. Slowly he calmed down, his breathing slowly coming under control and the hiccups fading. He sighed softly, still holding as close to Jason as he could. Listening to Jason's heart, the beat steady, he felt his own steady out.
He still trembled slightly, his eyes drifting closed though he remained wide awake. He nuzzled against Jason, drying his face.
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Post by Jason Hiller on Feb 10, 2010 13:12:58 GMT -5
Jason kissed Zeph's forehead and gently dried the tears from his face. "It's alright, my heart. You're okay." He looked anxiously into his boyfriend's face, his own full of concern. "What were you dreaming that scared you so much? Do you want to talk about it?"
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Feb 10, 2010 13:22:06 GMT -5
Zephyros just moved closer, keeping his breathing controlled. "It skipped around... The first part was..." he paused, then sighed, squeezing his eyes shut. "I need to explain something first...
"What do you know of the myth of Hyakinthos?" he asked softly, looking up at Jason.
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Post by Jason Hiller on Feb 10, 2010 13:31:26 GMT -5
Jason frowned in confusion as he answered. "The god Zephyros was in love with the Spartan prince Hyakinthos, but then Apollon stole Hyakinthos from Zephyros, so one day when Apollon and Hyakinthos were out throwing a discus, Zephyros manipulated the wind and hit Hyakinthos in the head and killed him. Is that right?"
He looked at Zeph in growing agitation at what he had just realized, or thought he had. "Zeph... something like this didn't actually happen to you, did it?"
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Feb 10, 2010 13:42:29 GMT -5
"Um... well... not exactly," Zephyros said evasively. "I um... didn't kill him..."
He shifted uncomfortably. "I was dating a boy named Hyakinthos, and he was seduced away from me. By an Italian named Apollos... When I found out, I was heartbroken, enraged. I... found them both. And I landed them both in intensive care. I was under house arrest for a month... But that was nearly five years ago... I've grown up, and... that wasn't the point of how I started, though admittedly I need to explain that to explain the dream..." he said softly, curling up again.
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Post by Jason Hiller on Feb 10, 2010 13:46:01 GMT -5
Jason nodded slowly, licking his lips nervously. "I see... so what happened next, in the dream?"
He shivered a little at the thought of a twelve or thirteen-year-old Zeph landing two other boys in the ICU over something like that. His temper was just as strong as ever, it seemed. He wondered distantly if the boys were okay.
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Feb 10, 2010 13:53:43 GMT -5
"That's not how the dream started. I was watching the discus... so I was my namesake. I had these HUGE wings, and at first I didn't understand why I was so angry, and I leapt at them... then suddenly I was in that alley, beating Apollos and Hyakinthos... when Hyakinthos passed out, I was back with the discus, holding the prince Hyakinthos as he died... he was calling for me to help him and I couldn't... I guess I didn't have the ability to heal or something... and everything blurred..."
His voice choked up and he buried his face into Jason's chest. "And then I wasn't holding a dead Spartan prince... and I wasn't in a clearing in Greece." He sniffed and started crying again. "It was you, after falling except you were dead and I couldn't do anything and I hadn't been able to do anything! Aramis took your body away from me, I think he was trying to heal you or something... a-and I ran away, I had to fight through this huge crowd and then I was in the shower again, and you weren't going to come save me because I hadn't been able to save you and I made you go up there and I couldn't live without you! And when I cut my wrists it didn't hurt...
"Everything went black and then I was being held, I don't know by who... They had a strange voice. It almost sounded like me, except older and... I don't know how to describe it, but it wasn't human... and I looked up into gold eyes and the voice told me that I didn't have to kill myself and it told me that you wouldn't have wanted me to kill myself and then it told me to sleep because I'd made my choice and then I didn't WANT to die but..."
He shivered and pressed his face into Jason's chest. "And then I woke up..."
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Post by Jason Hiller on Feb 10, 2010 14:00:47 GMT -5
Jason listened in silence, pain etched into his face. but he knew it was nothing compared to the pain in Zeph's heart. He held his boyfriend close and stroked his hair, speaking softly and soothingly.
"It was just a dream, Zeph. Regardless of what really happened, that's all in the past now. We're both alive, well and whole." He tilted Zeph's head up gently and kissed him on the mouth. "Everything's going to be fine."
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Feb 10, 2010 14:05:47 GMT -5
Zephyros kissed him back and then put his head on Jason's shoulder, his eyes still upset and staring almost blankly into the distance. "I don't know what I'd do without you..." he said softly. "The only part of the stuff before my wrists that didn't actually happen or follow what I know was that you died... and that could have so easily been what really happened... so easily..."
His voice died slowly and he closed his eyes, sighing softly and wrapping his arms tightly around Jason. "Yes... everything's going to be okay..." he whispered, as if he was trying to convince himself.
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Post by Jason Hiller on Feb 10, 2010 14:14:12 GMT -5
Jason nodded, smiling quietly and rubbing Zeph's back. "Everything's going to be okay," he repeated, carefully lying back down and pulling Zeph with him. "Go back to sleep, my heart."
He snuggled close to his boyfriend, closing his eyes. Hopefully the nightmares were just a passing thing... they were just distorted shadows of myths and memories. Yes, they still hurt, but life went on. It didn't have to hurt so much.
Jason sighed softly, moving one hand to gently hold the locket Zeph had given him, feeling the steady beating of his real heart as he did so. Life went on.
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Feb 10, 2010 14:31:56 GMT -5
Zephyros just lay still with his eyes closed, almost afraid to go back to sleep. Resolutely, he forced his thoughts to focus on happier times... on getting Jason to teach him how to paint, on just watching Jason paint, on playing video games in the student lounge... Finally he managed to drift off, still holding Jason close. This time, his sleep was free of nightmares, easy.
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Post by Jason Hiller on Feb 10, 2010 14:38:08 GMT -5
Jason slowly drifted off to sleep as well, one arm around Zeph and the other hand holding his locket. No wolves or pirates prowled in his dreams... though he was dreaming of a life he had never known. Richard and Liam and V were all there, as were the others from the first part of his strange nightmare, as well as others he didn't recognize and couldn't name. As strange as the dreams were, they were not frightening, and he slept peacefully.
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Mar 1, 2010 3:07:49 GMT -5
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Zephyros sat in the chair he'd sort of claimed as his own, a sketchbook on his knees and a rather disproportionate image of something that might have been a cat trying to take form under his pencil. Finally he just let the pencil fall to the floor and ran his fingers through his hair in frustration. "I don't get it. I know what I want, I can see it right here," he tapped his forehead, "but it refuses to come out here!"
He tapped the pad irritably, resisting the urge to rip the offending image out and crumble it up. "I don't get how you do it, honestly."
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Post by Jason Hiller on Mar 1, 2010 11:58:34 GMT -5
"Years and years of practise," Jason answered calmly, glancing up from the sketchbook he had balanced on his own knees. "Practise, patience and perseverance."
He looked back down at his sketchbook, where a picture of Professors Hawk and Harrows was taking form on the page, and carefully pencilled in another of Professor Harrows' curls. He grinned to himself, pleased with how it was turning out.
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Mar 1, 2010 12:13:37 GMT -5
Zephyros set his sketchbook aside and came to sit next to Jason, looking over his shoulder. "I'd rather watch you," he said softly, leaning slightly against Jason's shoulder. "That's more fun anyway."
He watched quietly, careful that he didn't interrupt Jason's drawing. He would hate to cause a stray mark across the page or something. Ruining this art might be a crime or something. Or at least get him in trouble, and he had his brothers for that.
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Post by Jason Hiller on Mar 1, 2010 14:50:36 GMT -5
Jason laughed, finishing Professor Harrows' hair and starting on her face. Her head was turned slightly to the left, looking up at Professor Hawk with loving eyes; he was smiling back down at her with the same love in his face. His head was turned a little to the right; the scars on his left cheek were just slightly visible from that angle. Those had been tricky to draw, Jason thought with a smile. They'd turned out okay, though.
"I might turn this into a painting," he remarked, looking up at Zeph. "What do you think?"
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Mar 1, 2010 17:54:57 GMT -5
"I think you should and then give it to them. We all know they're going to tie the knot eventually... I bet it would be a great wedding gift or something of the like," Zeph said thoughtfully, wrapping his arms around Jason's neck when he'd stopped drawing. He rested his chin on Jason's shoulder, giving him a quick kiss on the cheek.
"There are a lot of new couples around here too. I mean, there are ones that have been together for a while like Professors Harrows and Hawk, but then there's like us, and Aritha's got a boyfriend too. Rudeth. I wouldn't have ever paired them but they seem pretty happy.
"And have you seen the new French teacher? I think she and Professor Dion are an item but I can't tell. You'd think there would be more drama around Valentine's day, but mostly things seem pretty calm."
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Post by Jason Hiller on Mar 1, 2010 18:04:56 GMT -5
Jason smiled. "That's a good idea. I think I'll do that."
He nodded thoughtfully as Zeph continued to speak. "Yeah, I've seen them; they look cute together. I bet Professor Dion's glad to see another teacher he doesn't have to crane his neck to look in the eye," he smirked. "And then you've got Hitoshi and Alex, too, and Ian and Natalie."
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Mar 2, 2010 3:05:27 GMT -5
"Yeah..." he pulled away a little. "Finish your picture. I should stay off of you so I don't fall asleep in your room again. You know, not break curfew and sleep in my room like a normal, well-behaved student."
He moved back to his chair and picked up the sketchbook, looking at it in frustration without even picking up his pencil. He wasn't even going to bother trying to draw it again. At least, not today. Sighing, he just watched Jason from a distance, content just to be with him. Even if they weren't even really talking this time.
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Post by Jason Hiller on Mar 2, 2010 13:45:08 GMT -5
Jason smiled and kissed Zeph's cheek before the younger boy slipped away, then turned his attention back to his drawing. He took his time, wanting to be sure it was perfect since he planned on turning it into a gift. No sense in giving or even making a painting based on a sub-standard sketch.
Finally he finished, setting his pencil and sketchpad aside on his nighttable, carefully so as not to smudge the drawing at all. He lay back on his bed and stretched out, grinning as he beckoned for Zeph to join him.
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