Zephyros Aetai
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Nov 4, 2009 17:40:18 GMT -5
"Who cares?" Zeph mumbled, rubbing his eyes. He wrapped his arms around Jason and pressed his head against Jason's chest. He had woken on his own, but that didn't mean he was ready to be 'up' yet.
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Post by Jason Hiller on Nov 5, 2009 12:03:39 GMT -5
Jason pawed around in the dark for his cellphone, picking it up and blinking at the screen. "It's five minutes after midnight... Where did all our time go?"
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Zephyros Aetai
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Nov 5, 2009 12:13:16 GMT -5
"Sleep," Zeph said succinctly. "It's where most of my month is going."
He kept his arms around Jason, content just to rest beside him. Almost midnight... that meant they'd missed supper. The kitchen staff would be asleep, but they could always raid that cupboard he'd arranged for Jason. It would still be full; kept that way... if they'd really been using it at all. But he didn't want to move... or let go of Jason so the werewolf could go get food...
If Jason mentioned it, he'd move but until then... Zeph was going to stay right here. This was all he really cared about... he'd come so close to losing it...
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Post by Jason Hiller on Nov 5, 2009 12:21:18 GMT -5
Jason set his phone down and snuggled close to Zeph again. He doubted either of them would be able -- or willing -- to drift off to sleep again, which would completely mess with their internal clocks. They'd be hard put to get up at a decent time in the morning. But as long as he had Zeph, Jason didn't much care.
His empty stomach gurgled quietly in complaint, and Jason sighed. "Guess I should deal with that... Do you want me to bring you anything?"
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Nov 5, 2009 12:24:27 GMT -5
Zeph sighed... he'd hoped but it had probably been inevitable. He nodded slowly, "Yeah... whatever you have is good with me. I think I'll stay here, though... moving around does not appeal."
He stifled a yawn, snuggling Jason a little but ready to let go the moment Jason started moving away.
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Post by Jason Hiller on Nov 5, 2009 12:29:30 GMT -5
Jason smiled and kissed Zeph softly on the lips before slipping gently away. "I'll be back soon."
He tiptoed out of the room and down the hall, returning a few minutes later with food for two. He turned on the light and sat down on the edge of the bed beside Zeph, handing him what he had brought. "I didn't think it would be good to eat too much in the middle of the night... I hope this will do."
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Zephyros Aetai
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Nov 5, 2009 12:41:47 GMT -5
Zeph carefully pushed himself into a sitting position, sucking in a short breath as he swore he felt his ribs shift. They remained where they belonged and he relaxed slightly, taking what Jason gave him. "You're probably right... it's hard to rest properly on a full stomach. But we also shouldn't just skip a meal, either..."
He sighed, holding his head a little. All this sleeping was getting to him... he almost felt more exhausted than he had before. Or maybe it was missing a meal... He picked at the food Jason had brought for him, not really hungry. Not that he was ever hungry any more... and he had a lot of weight to gain back because of it... most of it muscle mass. He didn't want Jason to notice he wasn't eating... or his doctor. That was a frightening thought. Eating the occasional bite, he just kept his eyes down. Maybe Jason wouldn't notice?
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Post by Jason Hiller on Nov 5, 2009 13:03:02 GMT -5
Jason watched Zeph carefully, seeing that he was only putting the bare minimum of food into his mouth. It was understandable, given all that Zeph had been through these past several days -- everything about him had been affected in one way or another. But it still worried Jason. Zeph was clearly trying not to be noticed, but that made him all the more conspicuous.
"You're barely eating anything," Jason remarked quietly. "Are you okay?"
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Nov 5, 2009 13:11:50 GMT -5
Zeph sighed, still picking at it. "Mostly. My stomach won't handle very much... and I really hate throwing up."
Which he'd managed to hide from Jason until his exhausted mouth just blurted it out. Covering his eyes, he sighed. "I'm eating enough to keep from losing any more weight, and I'm taking suppliments to prevent malnutrition. But at the moment, I have two choices; be in so much pain I can't eat or take medicines that turn my stomach but keep me able to function. My leg normally hurts, and my chest... and various soft tissue injuries that are taking their precious time to heal..."
Which includes that one I won't tell you. The one you will, if I have any say, never learn of.
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Post by Jason Hiller on Nov 5, 2009 13:32:33 GMT -5
Jason sighed softly, looking at Zeph in pity. The words "I wish there was something I could do" fidgeted on the tip of his tongue, but he bit them back; they wouldn't do any good. Zeph already knew that. And there was very little, if anything, he could do. He was left to wait on Zeph, grieving for his lover's pain and frustrated at his own helplessness to do anything about it. Complaining wouldn't help anyone.
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Nov 5, 2009 13:46:17 GMT -5
Zeph reached out and put a hand on Jason's cheek, smiling softly at him. "I don't hurt right now, Jason. I'm content... I have you here with me, I'm still alive and I'm healing. There is nothing more I could ask for."
He leaned forward carefully, kissing Jason lightly on the lips. He didn't want Jason's pity... he didn't need pity. He needed Jason with him, but not his pity.
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Post by Jason Hiller on Nov 5, 2009 13:53:53 GMT -5
Jason kissed Zeph softly back, his eyes starting to hurt with the threat of tears. He hated this... he hated seeing Zeph suffer, and all because they had been apart for a matter of minutes... The world was a cruel, cruel place.
He knew that he and Zeph both had pains they were unwilling to reveal to each other, and the thought of it gnawed a hole in Jason's heart. Relationships were about trust. Trust was about communication. So why couldn't they communicate?
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Nov 5, 2009 13:58:16 GMT -5
Zeph sighed, seeing the expression on his boyfriend's face.
"Come here, Jason..." he said softly, putting his hands on Jason's cheeks and pulling very gently. Maybe I should tell you... but first you have to tell me what's wrong.
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Post by Jason Hiller on Nov 5, 2009 14:05:13 GMT -5
Jason shifted closer to Zeph, leaning his head on his boyfriend's shoulder as he tried to figure out how to begin to say what he was feeling. Much of it was what Zeph already knew and probably had grown tired of hearing.
"I can't stand seeing you in pain," he eventually whispered, lifting his eyes to Zeph's face. "I know you're hiding things from me... they did things to you that you can't stand the thought of and you wouldn't dare tell me about. But relationships are built on trust, and trust is about communication. Honesty. Talking about what we feel. How can we trust each other if we can't be completely honest with each other, even about the things that hurt us most? Especially about those things."
He kept his eyes on Zeph's face, trying to breathe around the lump in his throat.
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Nov 5, 2009 14:10:14 GMT -5
"Is that all that's wrong?" he asked softly, looking at him with a soft, sad smile. Only once he was sure... would he tell Jason what he'd been keeping hidden. But it was going to be hard... hard to tell, and probably far harder for Jason to hear. His fingers ran lightly through Jason's hair as he held his boyfriend close.
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Post by Jason Hiller on Nov 5, 2009 14:11:46 GMT -5
Jason nodded, trying not to sob as he took a breath. "I need to know what's hurting you... and if there's any way I can fix it."
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Nov 5, 2009 14:23:46 GMT -5
"I'm afraid there is nothing you can do, Jason..." he whispered softly. He closed his eyes... how was he going to tell him? His fingers continued to play lightly with his boyfriend's hair. Taking a slow breath, he tried to make sense of his thoughts.
"I don't know how to tell you this, my heart... I'm afraid to, I..." his voice died and he took a deep breath. It choked him and he gagged for a second, memories flooding into his mind. His body shook as he closed his eyes tightly. Tears still slid down his cheeks, burning as they traced down his face. He hunched his shoulders, shaking his head. Putting both hands to his head, he rocked a little, trying to put down the memories enough to actually talk about them. Quickly turning, he buried his face into Jason's shoulder. He whimpered, shaking his head quickly.
"They... th-" he choked again, crying. His fingers clutched Jason's shirt as he pressed his face into Jason's shoulder worse. Whimpering, he tried to get his voice back. He had to tell him...
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Post by Jason Hiller on Nov 5, 2009 14:27:00 GMT -5
Jason wrapped his arms around Zeph, holding him close, trying to comfort him. "Shh... hush, love, it's alright... whatever they did, they can't do it again. You're safe now. I'm here."
What could they have done to him... what could cause him this much pain?
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Nov 5, 2009 14:33:05 GMT -5
He nodded, still trying to control his reactions. He'd forced himself not to think about it for so long... the shock had him ill. Finally, controlling his breathing, he just leaned against Jason. His voice was choked, but he managed to whisper just loud enough for Jason to hear. "They... tortured me, you know that... but not all of how... They..."
His voice died again and he whimpered softly. Moving carefully, he whispered into Jason's ear what he couldn't say any louder. Putting his head on Jason's shoulder, he just shivered, his eyes closed.
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Post by Jason Hiller on Nov 5, 2009 14:51:57 GMT -5
Jason's throat closed at the shock of what Zeph whispered into his ear. He struggled to draw a breath, his eyes burning as they overflowed with tears. All he could do was give a strangled whimper, his hands pressed to his mouth. He squeezed his eyes shut as his body convulsed at the sheer thought of such torment. His stomach churned, and he fought to keep from throwing up what he had just eaten.
His throat finally opened enough to let him breathe again, and he lowered his trembling hands and curled them into fists. The mind-numbing shock and sorrow were twisting into a dark river of fury somewhere deep inside of him. If he had known before what he knew now... he would not have stopped after killing only one of Zeph's captors.
He got up from the bed, unable to sit still any longer. He could feel his whole body shaking, the rage inside of him fuelling his canine side. He gritted his teeth to hold on to being human, his every other instinct telling him to run, to escape, to hurt something or someone. Most of all he wanted to hurt the ones who had harmed Zeph, but they were gone: all dead or imprisoned, far out of his reach.
He sucked in one deep breath, then another, trying to calm himself down.
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Nov 5, 2009 15:04:17 GMT -5
Zeph watched him, his eyes filling worse with tears. His hand reached out a little, but he pulled it back. He wanted to walk over to Jason, to hold him tight and try to calm him down... as well as calm himself. Swallowing, he grabbed his pillow and buried his face in it, crying. His parents didn't even know...
Jason deserved to know, though. More than anyone, Jason deserved to know...
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Post by Jason Hiller on Nov 5, 2009 15:13:13 GMT -5
The sound of Zeph's muffled sobbing broke the wall of anger that Jason had built around his heart, and he wavered a little where he stood. His eyes still burned with tears, and he was still trembling, but his mind was calmer now. Nowhere near fully calm, but the river of his rage was not as fierce.
He returned to Zeph, sitting beside hm and wrapping his arms tight around him, burying his face in his boyfriend's shirt. He couldn't bear to even try to look into Zeph's face, knowing that he would see his own pain reflected there, a hundred times stronger.
Oh, my heart... if there was anything I could do to make this right, I would do it in a second, a heartbeat...
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Nov 5, 2009 15:28:48 GMT -5
Zeph pressed as close to Jason as he could, unable to put the pillow aside and embrace Jason as he longed to do. The pain in his heart eased a little with Jason's arms around him, though it still burned. "Don't leave me, Jason... don't wall yourself off. I need you... more than I've ever needed you. I need you to be with me on this..."
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Post by Jason Hiller on Nov 5, 2009 15:55:58 GMT -5
Jason sucked in a breath with difficulty, his hands clenching around Zeph's shirt. "Anything you need me to do, beloved."
But he knew he wouldn't be able to hold his anger inside forever; sooner or later it would have to be let out. He didn't want to think about that. He hated having to bottle his emotions... it made it all the worse when they finally broke free.
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Nov 5, 2009 20:04:06 GMT -5
"Just stay with me for a moment..." he said softly, keeping his head on Jason's shoulder. "Just let me calm down please... then you can go to our glade or somewhere else on the island and tear things apart. But please... stay with me... I need you..."
He shifted, getting the pillow out of the way and wrapping his arms around Jason tightly, still trying not to cry. He hadn't cried while they had him... except when he thought he might be saved... But now it was all he wanted to do. "This is why I didn't want to tell you..." he whispered.
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