Jason Hiller
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Post by Jason Hiller on Nov 5, 2009 20:10:45 GMT -5
Jason nodded, still feeling sick. "I understand that now... I'm so sorry, my heart..."
His arms tightened unconsciously around Zeph for a moment, but he soon realized it and loosened his grip a little before he could hurt Zeph's ribs. He knew he needed some time alone to vent his emotions, but he didn't think he could dare leave Zeph's side for more than a few minutes at a time... not after what had happened. Not after knowing what he knew.
"You can cry if you need to," he whispered, rubbing Zeph's back to try and soothe him. "If it will help... I don't mind. Do what you need to do."
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Nov 5, 2009 20:20:40 GMT -5
Zeph shook his head, "Crying makes me sick... And I need you to be well too... I can go spend some more time with my family too... while you go do what you need to. I'll be okay, for a few hours if that's what you need. Everyone here will be careful of me, you know that. And I need you to be you... to be well. And not to bottle everything up until you burst."
He sighed softly, having regained control of his body, his breathing. No tears now; he had it all internalized for when Jason was not fighting his own nature. Mostly; the wind outside was just short of tearing trees up. Closing his eyes, Zeph took a slow breath and the wind faded. He looked up at Jason, his eyes golden and unreadable, as if he didn't know how to feel. He put a hand on Jason's cheek, smiling softly. "I need you to take care of you too... I have an entire island of people to take care of me..."
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Post by Jason Hiller on Nov 5, 2009 20:58:05 GMT -5
Jason looked into Zeph's golden eyes and nodded once, slowly and reluctantly lowering his arms and taking Zeph's free hand in his own. "I'll try not to be too long."
He slipped away, picking some clean clothes out of his dresser and stuffing them into his backpack -- he'd need them later. Returning briefly to Zeph's side, he kissed him softly and left the room in silence. It didn't take him long after leaving the mansion to reach the glade, where he set his backpack carefully down on the ground and stepped away from it. Now that he was alone, he was free to give his anger dominion -- for awhile.
He let his fury boil up, and dropped to all fours, shifting to his lupine form as his aggression took over. He gazed around at the black-and-white world of the glade, imagining that the trees were the sinister shapes of Zeph's captors, his tormentors. Snarling in unbridled anger, he lunged, tearing branches from the trees and snapping them into pieces, imagining bones crunching under his teeth. The sap was warm and sticky, somewhat like the blood of the man he had killed. He vented his emotions on the innocent foliage, growling and howling out his rage and frustration.
Finally he flopped down on his stomach the grass, feeling much better emotionally, but physically exhausted. He panted as he shifted back to human form, digging his fingers into the warm, moist earth. He shut his eyes and lay still for a moment, feeling the grass and splintered wood under his body and the winds rushing over his skin. Slowly he got up again, brushing himself off and looking around for his backpack. He hoped he hadn't shredded that, too, in his rage.
He found his backpack and dug out his clothes, pulling them on quickly and heading back the way he had come as he shrugged the backpack on. He slipped silently into his bedroom again, crawling into bed and burrowing under the blankets.
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Nov 5, 2009 21:24:26 GMT -5
Zeph had managed to get back to his own room. He lay staring at the ceiling, unable to sleep. Unable to stop thinking about what he had gone through earlier in the month. He hoped Jason was feeling better, because he wasn't going to feel better for a very long time. There were no tears... just the pain no medication could hide. Except one that would possibly alter his personality too.
Groaning, he sat up and hunted in the dark for the drugs that helped him sleep, without the physical pain. He knew it was going to be another night of nightmares... but at least it was sleep. Swallowing them with a swift gulp of water, he lay back down and watched the shadows on his ceiling dance. Jason... I need you more than you could possibly know. But... did I just lose you through no fault of my own?
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Post by Jason Hiller on Nov 5, 2009 21:44:42 GMT -5
Jason slept soundly through the rest of the night and well into the morning. When he finally did wake up again, his mind was fresh, his body rested. He blinked over at the clock: a quarter past noon. Yawning, he sat up and stretched, noticing Zeph was nowhere in sight. Panic seized him, and he bolted from the room, running instinctively down to Zeph's.
"Zeph?!"
He burst into his lover's room without bothering to knock, rushing over to the bed. Zeph lay asleep, his closed eyes darting back and forth as he dreamed. Jason reached out and gently brushed a lock of golden hair away from his face, relaxing significantly. Zeph was safe. All was well. Well... not all... but as much as could be hoped.
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Nov 5, 2009 21:55:29 GMT -5
Zeph's eyes flickered open slowly as he felt Jason's hand brush his hair. He looked at him blankly, the drugs keeping him from recognizing Jason at first. His eyes searched the werewolf's face, and then he smiled, reaching up and putting a hand on Jason's cheek. His smile was... odd, dreamy and yet sad. He blinked and carefully sat up, rubbing his eyes. "Feel... better?" he asked drowsily, as though it was difficult for him to put even those two words together.
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Post by Jason Hiller on Nov 5, 2009 22:04:49 GMT -5
Jason nodded, sitting down on the edge of Zeph's bed and smiling in relief. "Yeah... bad feelings gone. What about you?" He searched Zeph's face, noting his bleary, drug-fogged eyes. "I bet taking all that medication is a bugger on your brai--"
He quickly cut himself off. "I'm sorry. Really bad word choice. What I meant was, I bet the meds are murder on-- ah, scheisse, I'm not helping this at all..." He buried his face in his hand. "I should just stop talking now..."
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Nov 5, 2009 22:10:43 GMT -5
Zeph chuckled, "Jason... I barely know what you're saying right now. Don't worry about it... I won't even remember this."
He pulled Jason into a kiss, putting his head on his boyfriend's shoulder, humming softly. "That's why I'm taking these," he said, closing his eyes. "To forget things."
Yawning slightly, he snuggled close to Jason, happy in part due to the drugs in his system. He couldn't remember anything to make him upset at the moment.
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Post by Jason Hiller on Nov 5, 2009 22:34:00 GMT -5
Jason smiled rather awkwardly, wrapping his arms around Zeph. "So this is kind of pointless then, hmm?" he asked, leaning in and kissing Zeph back. It felt so good to be back in his love's arms... he couldn't remember a time when Zeph had not been his.
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Nov 5, 2009 22:55:50 GMT -5
Zeph chuckled again, "Mmhmm. But still feels good," he said, kissing Jason back. He yawned, wrapping his arms around Jason. "Makes me sleepy though... Probably have hours before I'm thinking right again."
He let his eyes close, still sort of humming under his breath.
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Post by Jason Hiller on Nov 5, 2009 23:18:52 GMT -5
Jason giggled. "You're awfully cute when you're high... but I think I prefer you in your right mind." He snuggled close to Zeph, content to stay with him for as long as he was desired (which was technically forever, but he was okay with that). Or until his bladder told him he was needed elsewhere. Eh, nevermind his bladder. He could hold it.
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Nov 5, 2009 23:21:26 GMT -5
Zeph giggled, "You say I'm cute when I'm sleepy too..." he said, sighing softly. His eyes closed and he yawned. "I'm going to go to sleep now..."
He shifted and nearly fell asleep, then shook his head and looked at Jason. "Should I lay down before I go to sleep?" he asked blankly.
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Post by Jason Hiller on Nov 5, 2009 23:24:10 GMT -5
Jason grinned. "Yeah, that's a good idea." He laid Zeph gently down, lying down beside him and cuddling close. "I'll stay here with you."
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Nov 5, 2009 23:29:46 GMT -5
Zeph cuddled with him, listening to his heartbeat happily. Just having Jason there was making him happy. Nothing was going to ruin how he felt right now.
At the edge of his mind, he realized that it was probably a good thing that he was normally asleep when he was on this drug or he might get addicted to this feeling. The emotion he felt with Jason near was so much stronger like this... His eyes closed and he sighed softly, falling asleep only to slip into nightmares that he couldn't show because of the very drug that was making Jason find him so amusing.
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Post by Jason Hiller on Nov 5, 2009 23:36:36 GMT -5
Jason lay awake, watching Zeph contentedly as he slept. It had not taken Zeph long at all to fall asleep, and now he was dreaming, his face peaceful.
But gradually the calm in Zeph's face and body began to fade; he moaned softly in his sleep, his muscles tensing. Jason bit his lip, wondering what terrible memories he was reliving in his sleep. He reached up and shook Zeph's shoulder, calling out to him softly.
"Zeph... Zeph, beloved, wake up..."
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Nov 5, 2009 23:44:24 GMT -5
Zeph woke up with a gasp, catching Jason's shoulder with his eyes wide. Tears filled his eyes and he threw himself against his boyfriend's chest, crying. There was only one thing he was remembering now... His fingers dragged at Jason's shirt in an attempt to clutch at it, though he couldn't seem to get a grip. After a moment, he gave up, wrapping his arms tightly around Jason's chest.
Breathing was hard... his throat was closed against sobs, but that cut off his breathing too. His face was pressed against Jason's shoulder almost to the point it hurt. He whimpered, his fingers trying to get a grip on Jason's shirt again.
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Post by Jason Hiller on Nov 6, 2009 14:23:08 GMT -5
"Shhh," Jason whispered, rubbing Zeph's back soothingly. "Still, still, my heart. You're okay. It was a dream... just a dream. You're safe. They can't hurt you anymore."
He wanted desperately to believe it himself, but he knew that even though Zeph's tormentors could no longer inflict physical wounds on him, the wounds in his body and mind would not completely heal for a long, long time... perhaps not at all.
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Nov 6, 2009 14:34:01 GMT -5
Zeph relaxed at the sound of Jason's voice, just leaning against him as the tears slowly faded. A dream... it had felt so real, but it was a dream... Dreams faded away.
Now that he wasn't frantic, his fingers managed to tighten a little around Jason's shirt. Breathing slowly, Zeph just held Jason close. As long as Jason was there, he knew he was safe. No one could hurt him... He sighed, still holding Jason tightly. His body was shaking... he couldn't tell if it was cold or continued distress.
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Post by Jason Hiller on Nov 6, 2009 14:39:54 GMT -5
Jason closed his eyes, continuing to murmur into Zeph's ear and rub his back, wanting him to be calm. Eventually he fell silent, pressing close to Zeph. His mere presence would be of some help to his lover's wounded heart and mind.
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Nov 6, 2009 14:47:30 GMT -5
Zeph sighed softly, feeling his heart pounding beneath his ribs. Ribs that were at least there still in one piece. His body ached, in memory and because his medication was wearing off. He moaned softly, pressing closer to Jason despite the awkward angle forced on him by his leg. His eyes closed as his jaw clenched against the pain rising in his body. Fingers tightened around Jason's shirt as he felt his heart pound harder. It was making him light-headed, and air was coming to him in short gasps. Breathing hurt; the only reason he could normally breathe without trouble was the pain medication... Pain medication that should have left him completely out of it but mostly only took the edge off the pain.
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Post by Jason Hiller on Nov 6, 2009 14:53:36 GMT -5
Jason looked at Zeph in concern, pulling away slightly to give Zeph room to breathe.
"Lie down," he urged him softly, gently easing Zeph back down onto his pillow. "Don't strain your body like that, you'll hurt your ribs and your leg." He clasped Zeph's hand in both of his, massaging it gently, his eyes full of worry.
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Nov 6, 2009 15:03:30 GMT -5
Zeph lay with his eyes closed, panting. It took him a moment to control his breathing again, and he looked at Jason. "I need the pills by your elbow... they aren't the ones that make me sleep."
Other injuries starting making themselves known, the ones that kept him from eating. Too many fists to the stomach. He pressed his head into the pillow, his face twisted in pain. His leg didn't bother him... a small blessing. Closing his eyes again, he listened to his pulse pound in his ears, attempting to ignore the agony of his body. The hand Jason held tightened around Jason's fingers, holding one of his hands captive.
And he'd lived with this pain for three days, been able to think with this pain... the medication was making him soft. He wondered if maybe he should try to live without it. If he wasn't careful, he was going to get addicted to it too, and then he'd have a different pain to worry about.
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Post by Jason Hiller on Nov 6, 2009 15:08:03 GMT -5
Jason nodded. "Hold on, I'll get you some water..."
He left the room, coming back quickly with a glass of cold water, then found the bottle and opened it, shaking a few pills into his palm. He glanced at the label to get the right dosage, then pressed a couple of pills into Zeph's hand and gave him the glass of water.
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Post by Zephyros Aetai on Nov 6, 2009 15:13:56 GMT -5
Zeph carefully sat up and got a mouthful of water, then put the pills in his mouth and swallowed. He closed his eyes, the hand holding the glass of water clenched so tightly its knuckles were turning white. Taking a careful breath, he set the glass carefully on his bedside table and reached to pull Jason into the bed with him. He hurt, and he wanted Jason right next to him, to give him something else to focus on.
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Post by Jason Hiller on Nov 6, 2009 15:31:05 GMT -5
Jason obediently lay down beside his lover, looking into his pained eyes. "Talk to me, beloved. About anything. Don't focus on the pain, just look at me."
He wrapped his arms gently around Zeph, holding him close. Their hearts beat side by side, two parts of one whole. Any joy they felt was shared joy, any pain was shared pain. It was a blessing and a curse, but Jason wouldn't give it up for anything.
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